10.05.2009

The Home that Patience Built

The other day I sat down and wrote out a list of things I want for this house. Bad idea. I don't recommend this. While I had hoped it would give me a small feeling of organization and direction, it did nothing but give me a feeling of anxiousness and disappointment.

Just so we're clear, I LOVE this house. It has so much potential I can hardly see straight. I have mentioned before the things that Cody and I plan to do to it - remodeling the kitchen, staining the floors black, widening the doorway in the living room, etc. I'm so eager to see it all put together. The past few nights I have walked through this house in my mind...everything is done and it's beautiful. I imagine where I would put all my Christmas decorations and where I would hang our pictures. I imagine dusting an entry way table, napping on our living room sofa, hosting parties under new light fixtures. None of these items currently exist, you see. No new kitchen, no entry way table, no living room sofa.

They will all come in time, of course, and that's ok. I keep reminding myself that it's up to me to make this a rad home no matter what state it's in. It's up to me to make sure that my home is warm and welcoming. That friends like to be here and feel comfortable here. Until we can remodel the upstairs bathrooms, I will probably always wince at the wooden toilet seats (who thought that was ok??). And until our kitchen is done, I will always shake my head at our sky blue countertops (again, who's idea was this?).

The list of things to do to the outside of the house is long, too. Ripping trees out, putting trees in, new gray/purple shake shingles and a red door....sigh, I must be patient. It will come in time, right? Right. Although a cool computer desk would be so great right now. Adding it to the list...

4 comments:

Jenglamgirl said...

NOT to burst your bubble, but first you have to remember and (I am sure you do) that you are so fortunate to own and have a home, in an economy where my entire parents street "cul-de-sac" has lost their homes and some living in apartments now.

You are fine to day dream and desire pretty things... i DO IT TOO! however, just a note from me.. you are so LUCKY AND BLESSED... you have a home and you totally get to make it yours. IT starts somewhere... and will eventually all be done. One thing at a time. GOOD LUCK. p.s. a vintage wood toilet seet.. SO COOL! hA! i HAVE CARPET in my MBath, THANK GOD its not around the toilet bowl.. but who decided just to tile around the bowl and not all of it? ANNOYING!

kateastrophe said...

I can't wait to see what you guys do with your house but I can totally see how it might become a bit overwhelming!

You are great and your house is great and you will make it SO amazing but just having you in there makes it awesome - for the record.

Shawn said...

Oh, my dear, just be thankful that you have that house----you will get it all done in time....

Jewels said...

Jen, you are totally right! I do feel so incredibly blessed that Cody and I were able to get this house for our family. We have seen friends and family lose so much in this economy...and it's scary. I didn't want my post to sound ungrateful - that's not how I feel. I know that it's a frothy complaint (like most) and shallow. While I want so much for this house, I also know how fortunate I am to have it - wooden toilet seats and all!