4.20.2009

Frayed


I'm falling apart.  Everything is too much when, realistically it shouldn't be too much.  The little things that are overwhelming me are just that - little things.   They are things that I should be able to handle and am perfectly able to handle...I'm just not handling them.  Rather than clean up the house and put away the laundry and take care of things, I just don't want to.  I don't want to work on projects that I have promised to complete.  I feel like I'm under a huge pile and there is no escape.  No one can help me because I'm the one that has to do it all.  Could I crawl into the tub and take a long bath?  Yes.  But that accomplishes nothing - not even giving me a recharge which I so desperately need.  I would just emerge from the bath and face the same obstacles that were there in the first place...only I would have to face them in a bathrobe and we all know how that would go.   They won't go away unless I deal with them, and sadly I just can't deal with them right now.  I don't want to.  "So, Sir Grump.  We meet again..."  

11 comments:

Suzanne said...

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Does it help to know that I pretty much always feel this way? I feel like having two kids has really thrown me through a loop. I used to get so annoyed when I'd hear women complaining about how hard being a mom of two (or more) was. And now, here I am and it's hard to admit when you're overwhelmed but I think we all have those days (at least I'm hoping we all do). Right now I have 4 piles of laundry that have been sitting in baskets in my room for at least 4 days now. What is my problem? Oh, I know, I'm soooo not perfect!

Good luck! Let's really get together for lunch or something sometime and not just talk about it. He he!

Jen said...

Hmmmmm... I seem to be feeling the same way, lately. Fed up. Fed up with too much. Fed up with everything.

My toddler, who has had very minimal sleeping issues, has all of the sudden decided to for-go naptime and wants to party all night. I have had to drive him around the neighborhood, at 12:00 p.m. at least 4 times this week, to get him to sleep. He's gets into EVERYTHING, ALL OF THE TIME! He is wearing me out.

Then there is keeping up with the household chores. And my church calling. And me. And sometimes I want to scream at my family, "Do you not see the mess? Why can't you just clean it? Why do I have to become a screaming maniac, before you decide to pitch in?"
I feel like my middle name should be "slave". Oh, and then there is that little thing called PMS that makes it, oh so much better.

My advice: We can't do it all. Take it day by day. Minute by minute. Pray. I have to remind myself that these stressful moments will pass. Hang in there friend. The laundry will get done sooner or later. Heck, I've been known to pull a shirt out of the hamper a time or two. No one noticed. And if they do...kick them in the shins!

Jenglamgirl said...

Oh' I would pick you up for a milk shake break and throw my "no sweets diet" out the window for you.

Man' we all have those days NO' weeks!!!!... my mom just said to me the other day... you should have your home all packed by now? I know 3 plus weeks isn't enough... I just can't do it or find the motivation. You do have to take it day by day. However, you seem on top of things as far as I am concerned. You do theatre, you take care of yourself, you love your boys, and hubby, and take care of them. Plus I am sure from the looks of it your home is clean too. Laundry never seems to EVER be done. I try to do a load or two a day and then the clean dry load sits on my couch for like 3 days before it gets folded. Think of your "all girl trip" you are planning that should be something to look forward to. Hugs!!!!!

Jessica said...

Amen!

Kateastrophe said...

You can deal with them tomorrow. Go hang out with your boys and go buy a sassy pair of jeans or shoes. Shoes are the best medicine, says me.

Tayva said...

Hang in there, kiddo. You're doing great. I love you

Tayva said...

Hang in there, kiddo. You're doing great. I love you

Shawn said...

Oh my dear, tis the season for feeling guilty for not wanting to spring clean, when everyone else seems to be in a dither of cleanliness!

I hate it! I was just taking a tantrum a few days ago about all the clutter in this HOUSE!! It is driving me insane!

Good luck to both of us.... :)

Shaunee said...

The sad thing is... I have those days all the time. I started climbing out of one just today, only to climb back in by 5:00. Welcome to the world of motherhood, eh?

Good luck. I hope you do get that bath and a clean house when you get out!

Sara said...

I feel your pain girl! When are we going to get a nanny/maid/personal chef? THEN we could have time to be a super awesome mommy (which is beyond how awesome YOU are daily) and look fantastic for our hubbies and have a slammin bod! Don't worry my love the day will come when all the little Jolleys are at school and you will have a glorious six and a half hours all to yourself! I LOVE YOU! Be strong!

Tim and Angie said...

I'm sorry you're feeling frayed. I feel that way often. Right now I blame it on the pregnancy. I really get tired of the monotonay of chores that I really don't like doing, but need to ALWAYS be done nonetheless. Anyway, good luck and remember...YOU'RE AWESOME!